"but that character is straight" you say
i put my hand on your shoulder
"nah" i reply
I am so deep in my body dysphoria, I don’t think I have ever hated whatever this is supposed to be more than I do now. I don’t look good, my face may be okay, but the rest is just disgusting and I want my bones back, I want people to wonder if I am a boy or a girl. I am and want to be neither. I don’t want anyone to touch me that way again. The only thing it brought me was sadness and loneliness. I know this is not good for me, but I can’t help it and I don’t want to either. I am full of self-disgust. I need to feel a little less of that.